As the weeks have progressed I've found myself to be a happier person. I continue to enjoy the activities that I had once enjoyed before, and no longer focus all energy on him...I focus on me, life, friends...time with them laughing and just being happy. I hated being where it was cold and snowing and wet; where it's so far away from anything and everything; where my friends are only a voice on a phone, and my family is pictures and Christmas memories. Now, I've changed my whole thought process. My time away from my family is giving me the ability to grow as an individual. I miss them and am happy to talk to them when I can. My time with my friends and peers attending school has become more important than most everything else.
I've found that in his presence my face reddens and my heart races. I get nervous...which just doesn't happen. I don't know what to do...I think okay, I want to hold his hand...countdown...1...2...3!...4... and eventually things work the way I want =) I get all excited when I know he's coming over. I freak, making sure the apartment isn't a total wreck, and remember that I should've done that homework I knew was due tomorrow. Instead I stay up after he leaves...much like I'm doing now...checking facebook and wishing he'd text and realizing I should really do my homework. That's now. When I need to do that homework on the presentation I need to have ready for tomorrow. Greeeat.
Is it sad that he only left 30 minutes ago and I want him to text me...? Yes, that is a rhetorical question. I'll leave you to ponder that...
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